MAGIC, MIRTH, AND MORTALITY: Musings On Black Motherhood

Joy. Fear. Guilt. Generational connection. Grief. Deep love. These are only a few of the complex emotions experienced by all mothers. Magic, Mirth, and Mortality: Musings on Black Motherhood is an exhibition inspired by the lived experiences of writer, curator, community builder, wife, and mother Shawana Brooks. Centered in the exhibition are her ‘motherhood musings’ written and shared during her pregnancy, the premature birth of her son Roosevelt, and an extended stay in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit. The vulnerability, honesty, and courage expressed in this collection of writings allowed hundreds, if not thousands, of people, to witness…in real time…the experiences of Shawana, her husband Roosevelt Watson III, and their son.

Brooks’ words are shown alongside visual art by Tatiana Kitchen, Marsha Hatcher, and Cheryl McCain. Their paintings, drawings, and prints express the courage, delight, vulnerability, and fierce determination that mark their experiences as mothers and views of the universality of this role.

The personal views expressed in the art become socially potent in light of the unique inequities and challenges faced by Black women from maternity to watching their children become adults. Statistics on mortality rates, inequity,, racism against Black women will add to the narratives of these four women and the women who came before them. This combination of memoir, visual art, and data is intended to create a space for healing, awareness building, sharing, and collective action. These intentions will be supported through a series of programs and experiences including spoken word events, artist talks, performances, and intimate conversations that will open opportunities for people to be seen and see one another.

We are unapologetically lifting up the experiences of Black women. We do so not to exclude others, but because this is we are compelled to shine the brightest light. Yet, there are universal truths offered up at every turn. Whether you are a mother yourself or someone who knows about mothering, a grandparent, a father, or a caregiver the words and images presented here will likely resonate. And we are all someone’s child….a child who entered this world carrying a history and set of realities as unique as we are.

Yellow House aims to create a gracious and brave space not only for the artists, but also for you. There is an opportunity within the space for you to do a bit of your own musing. While we invite you to breathe in the works of Shawana, Tatiana, Marsha, and Cheryl, we also honor your journey in all its complexity.

Meet The Artists

Shawana Brooks is an arts advocate, curator, and literary artist from Vallejo, California. She is a poet, public speaker, author, performer, and writer whose art revolves around the power of expression through the written and spoken word.

Shawana is deeply interested in the comprehension of human emotion through the use of language and scribes moments from her traumatic personal experiences to create a means for social sharing. The Motherhood Musings in this exhibition are a powerful example of this process. These written reflections were created and shared through social media during Shawana’s maternity journey, from the day she learned of her most recent pregnancy through the preterm birth of her son and 99 days in the Neonatal Unit at UF Health in Jacksonville. More than a document of her lived experience, these writings serve to create a dialogue on social justice issues focused on Black women.

Shawana has had a significant impact on the cultural scene in Jacksonville in a variety of roles. She was recently awarded the Cultural Council of Greater Jacksonville’s Robert Arleigh White Award for Artist Advocacy. She is a recipient of the Community Foundation of Northeast Florida Art Venture Individual Artist Grant, to further develop the work on display here. Following a successful career leading the launch of the Jax Makerspace, she has landed a role working for the non-profit Jacksonville Arts & Music School as the Development Director where she continues to advocate for artists of all ages, with a strong focus on supporting artists of color. She lives in Jacksonville with her husband, Roosevelt Watson III and their son, Roosevelt Watson IV.

Tatiana Kitchen is a visual artist from Jacksonville and an alum of Douglas Anderson School of the Arts. With acrylic paint being her medium of choice, she has developed a style emanating divine femininity, with the majority of her art being inspired by the life force of the universe, and the contributions and influence of humanity within that system. These images of transformation and seemingly other worldly beings are brought to life through a vibrant palette of colors and shapes that appear to shift right in front of us.

“As people, we all have experienced pain of some sort. Physical pain, emotional pain, the pain of loss or the pain feeling as though we don’t belong amongst others. I take my pain and channel it into my art, turning it into joyful, colorful scenes full of life and energy.”

Tatiana believes art to be her saving grace. As a person with a physical disability, she feels that through her artistic development, she is able to move through the world with a sense of optimism. Instead of allowing herself to be limited by her disability, she has chosen to immerse herself in all of the possibilities and opportunities that art brings to her life. As a result, she has allowed her passion and character to define who she is.

Tatiana has exhibited art in Connecticut, Tallahassee, and Miami during Art Basel. Although most of Tatiana’s works are on canvas, she is also a muralist. Most recently, she collaborated on a mural in the Wynwood district of Miami and a massively-scaled mural in the Arlington neighborhood in Jacksonville. In addition to the paintings created for this exhibition, you can see one of Tatiana’s murals on the exterior of Yellow House along Phyllis Street.

Marsha Hatcher, born in south Georgia, now lives and creates art in Jacksonville for the past 25 years. As a military wife for many years, Marsha traveled around the world and most of her art captures these experiences and the people she has met. She is an artist who loves creating art and her artwork defines who she is and what she is passionate about. Her preferred medium is painting and people of color are her subject matter.

As is evident in the works on view here, Marsha has often turned to the subject of motherhood. Images of protection, care, vulnerability, strength, and deep connection between mother and child vibrate with a life force that defies the limits of the canvas. Whether through a rich palette of color or the contrast of black and white, the works capture the gestures and symbols of the maternal figure.

Marsha has exhibited regionally and nationally for more than 25 years. Locally, she is a regular contributor to the Through Our Eyes exhibition at the Ritz Theater and Museum, and has been featured at the Cummer Museum of Art & Gardens. Most recently, Marsha was selected to create a body of work as part of the Legacy of Lynching exhibition at the Museum of Science and History, which is part of a larger national effort by the Equal Justice Initiative to document, raise awareness, and heal from the history of racial terror lynching in America. Marsha received her Bachelor of Arts degree from Albany State University. She is a member of Hopewell, Zeta Phi Beta Sorority, Inc., founding and current board member of Jacksonville Cultural Development Corporation formerly (JCAAA), and The Art Center Cooperative, Inc.

Cheryl McCain thoughtfully captures glimpses of both everyday life and the extraordinary moments that mark a woman’s journey through motherhood. The threads of connection between mothers and their daughters are illuminated in scenes from maternity to babe in arms and from moments of being playfully present to the monumental rites of passage of weddings and graduations. They are each images of great intimacy, reflection, strength, and joy. Collectively, these works remind us of the brilliance, beauty, and resilience of Black mothers, a narrative often obscured by the very real challenges and trauma they face.

Cheryl was born in Ocala, Florida, and is a retired Navy veteran, who served honorably for twenty years. Two years after retirement, she enrolled at The Art Institute of Jacksonville to study photography. After two years at The Art Institute, she left her studies to care for her ailing husband.

Cheryl’s work has been published in the Miami-based magazine Chellae and Jacksonville’s Void Magazine. In 2018, she was selected to exhibit in Jacksonville: A Tale of My City at the Jax Makerspace, and the Let’s Go! exhibit at the Jacksonville International Airport’s Haskell Gallery. She also was selected and competed in the 2019 Artfields Artist Competition located in Lake City, South Carolina. Most recently her work was displayed in the Through Our Eyes exhibition at the Ritz Theater and Museum.

Cheryl is married to Charles McCain and have four adult children: Antonio, Mia, Emanuel and Vivica. Cheryl and her husband reside in Historic Springfield in Jacksonville.

Here we are. And I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared.

artwork : Formula for Life | artist : Tatiana Kitchen

STATISTIC  |  In 1960, the United States was ranked 12th among developed countries in infant mortality. Since then, with its rate largely driven by the deaths of black babies, the United States has fallen behind and now ranks 32nd out of the 35 wealthiest nations.

The title of mom just doesn’t sync with my previous experience… even the word, feels like it will take up all the room in my identity once I allow it to take center stage.

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artwork : Little Alchemist | artist : Tatiana Kitchen

STATISTIC  |  Black infants in America are now more than twice as likely to die as white infants, a racial disparity that is actually wider than in 1850, 15 years before the end of slavery.

I’m beyond upset but it is what it is. I am only 27 weeks and 4 days, and by no means prepared for what in a few hours will change my whole existence.

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artwork : Three Centimeters | artist : Marsha Hatcher

STATISTIC  |  The lifelong accumulated experiences of racial discrimination is a proven risk factor linked to high rates of premature births and mortality rates for mother and baby.

Once they exit our bodies it’s an awful realization that love alone won’t be enough to keep them from danger.

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artwork : God’s Child | artist : Marsha Hatcher
artwork : Mama’s Little Man | artist : Marsha Hatcher

STATISTIC  |  In 2019, in Jacksonville, 63% of homicide victims were Black men.  Black men make up only 14% of the city’s population.

She has been our co-conspirator and for the last three months our son was as much hers as he was ours.

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artwork : Tia | artist : Cheryl McCain

STATISTIC  |  Until recently, only two countries, the U.S. and Papua New Guinea, did not provide mandatory paid leave for the birth or adoption of a child.  Legislation was passed in 2019, but only for federal workers.

Though a big chunk of me still feels self-conscious about bringing a black child into this world, he is here now and I want to be present for as much time as we have together.

artwork : Footsteps | artist : Cheryl McCain
artwork : Mother’s Arms | artist : Cheryl McCain

STATISTIC  |  Black women are the most educated demographic in the United States, with 64% earning post secondary degrees.  Yet, Black women earn only 61 cents on the dollar when compared with white men.

These contemporary experiences and perspectives are rooted in a long history that reaches back to the earliest years of colonization and the enslavement of Black women through those who were mothers of the Civil Rights Movement. As the exhibition moved to St. Augustine, the nation’s oldest city, historic objects and narratives lived alongside the musings of Shawana Brooks at the artworks in the original show.

The following material in both the Lincolnville Museum and Cultural Center and the St. Augustine Historical Society reflects the unique experiences of Black motherhood from St. Augustine’s founding to our contemporary moment in St. Johns County. The St. Augustine Historical Society’s exhibition highlights the experiences of enslaved Black mothers while the Lincolnville Museum and Cultural Center centers the stories of Black mothers in the twentieth and twenty-first centuries. Using their archival collections, each venue historically contextualizes some of the contemporary inequities Black women experience.

In these stories we find women who loved their children as only a mother can. They will have endeavored to find any opportunity, no matter how brief, to bring a smile – even laughter – into the lives of their children. It’s what mothers do! These mothers, however, would more often spend endless hours, days, even years in constant fear of what suffering the next sunrise might bring. Some loved their children enough to sacrifice their own lives for them. Some committed serious crimes, including murder, to protect them. One that we know of loved her children so much that she took their young lives from them, rather than allow them to endure their enslavement one day longer. To read their stories is to better understand the tragedy of chattel slavery, and the strength these women found within themselves to do that which must be done.

STATISTIC  |  In a 2017 study, over 30% of Black women reported that they faced medical discrimination because of their race. Over 20% of Black women reported that they refused to seek out medical treatment for fear of racial discrimination. These recent statistics are the legacy of centuries of medical discrimination in the present-day United States of America. Enslaved mothers were often severed from their communities of care and support.

It is believed by many that this fragile document will rewrite history. Here we find the earliest known record of the baptism of a newborn girl, Estebana, to an enslaved woman named Gratia on January 5, 1595, in St. Augustine. Father Francisco de Marron performed the sacrament.

Gratia | First Spanish Period, 1595 | St. Augustine Historical Society

STATISTIC | White Infant Death Rate for St. Johns County = 2.7 PER 1,000 LIVE BIRTHS  •  Black Infant Death Rate for St. Johns County = 22.4 PER 1,000 LIVE BIRTHS

In 1687, a decree from King Charles II of Spain offered safe haven in St. Augustine to any enslaved person escaping English plantations. This document records the “in necessity” baptism of Mariana Escovar, who was gravely ill when she arrived. Fleeing with 10 others, Mariana made the harrowing sojourn with a nursing infant on her back to their refuge in La Florida.

Mariana Escovar| First Spanish Period, 1687 | St. Augustine Historical Society

STATISTIC | The United States is one of only thirteen countries to experience an upward trend in maternal mortality rates in the last 25 years of the 158 countries that track such statistics. The other twelve countries are: Bahamas, Georgia, Guyana, Jamaica, North Korea, St. Lucia, Serbia, South Africa, Suriname, Tonga, Venezuela, and Zimbabwe.

Juana Solam was sold to a plantation in Havana, being forced to leave her two small children in the hands of her brutal owner in St. Augustine. Rather than accept this fate, Juana drowned her children in a well the night before her departure. She avoided execution once the true nature of her owner’s deviance was made public; however, she was forced to wear an iron collar for the next six years. She spent the rest of her life wearing anguish in her heart.

Juana Solam | First Spanish Period, 1787| St. Augustine Historical Society

STATISTIC | The Pregnancy Related Mortality Ratio (PRMR) for African American women over 30 is four to five times higher than white women. African American women in their early twenties have a PRMR at least 5.2 times higher than white women.

Violet Pinckney’s teenage children were sold in the 1850s. Her son, Alexander H. Darnes, never forgot his mother and sister. In 1880, Darnes received his M.D. from Howard University and settled in Jacksonville becoming the first African American physician in the city. He brought his mother and sister to live with him and served his community until his death in 1894. Violet lived many years raising the children of others, but in the end the good mother found solace

Images above include a receipt for $1 (6/3/1895) and funeral expenses (6/27/1895) for Violet Pinckney
Violet Pinckey | Antebellum Period | St. Augustine Historical Society

Black women are undervalued. They are not monitored as carefully as white women are. When they do present with symptoms, they are often dismissed.” — Dr. Ana Langer, director of the Women and Health Initiative at the Harvard T.H.

Known only as Amelia, this nine-year-old girl was included in a list of chattels purchased to work a sugar plantation in Louisiana. Married to a man named David at age 19, Amelia lost her first child while pregnant due to frequent beatings. Of her three children who survived, Amelia was allowed to raise only one, as the others were sold. Amelia was brought to St. Augustine where she worked as a laundress for her owner.

Amelia | Antebellum Period | St. Augustine Historical Society

Reports of enslaved women being severely whipped ‘for not coming to the quarters of the overseer or master for the purposes of prostitution’ were dutifully recorded.” — Slave Breeding: Sex, Violence, and Memory in African American History by Gregory Smithers

In 1867, Henry J. Morton captured the image of a woman surrounded by laundry in a community sketch of St. Augustine. Known as Aunty Minte, she was a cook at a local boarding house and lived on the corner of St. Francis and Charlotte. Her son Thomas is the subject of a photograph by Earnest A. Meyer. The photograph and sketch are all that we know about this former enslaved woman.

Aunty Minte | 1867 | St. Augustine Historical Society

“He is not hers, for cruel hands
May rudely tear apart
The only wreath of household love
That binds her breaking heart”

— Francis Ellen Watkins Harper, “The Slave Mother.” American Poetry: The Nineteenth Century (Library of America, 1993

Richard Alonysius Twine’s photographs are a lens to life in Lincolnville in the early 1920’s. Twine captured both happy and solemn moments on camera, the latter shown here. A funeral portrait, an infant is laid in an open casket on the porch of what is presumed to be their family’s home. The identity of the infant is unknown.

Funeral Portrait of Unidentified Infant | circa 1922 | Image from the Collection of the St. Augustine Historical Society Research Library

Not every mother goes through all those stages with their children and not all motherhood is rooted in biological connections.

Many of the women who were considered community mothers never gave birth, but took on the role of nurturing youth as caregivers, teachers and nurses. Black mothers have often had to take care of not only their own children and grandchildren, but historically cared for the children of white slaveholding women or later employers, while leaving their children with other relatives.

These are the stories of three community mothers: Katherine Twine, Janie Young Rice and Lottie Pierson. While Twine is the only one who had biological children, these three women worked as nurses and as advocates for the community. Magic, Mirth, and Mortality depicts the determination and resilience of Black mothers that face these hardships and seek to create a caring environment for their children and community.

Janie Price drawing by Celia Nofsinger


Accessibility to medical facilities and prenatal care was limited throughout the Jim Crow Era and has continued to present day. Segregation extended to hospitals and nurses, to the point that they had separate blankets. Janie Young Price, a local Lincolnville resident and community leader, worked to help her community in any way she could. Traveling all over the county, Price worked at all hours of the day to provide healthcare to those who did not have a doctor nearby. She helped young mothers by advocating for pre and postnatal care and infant formula for women working in migrant camps in St. Johns County.

Katherine Twine drawing by Celia Nofsinger


Katherine Twine was often referred to as “Our Rosa Parks.” Twine spent endless hours nurturing the children of others as a certified practical nurse at Flagler Hospital and as a community organizer and civil rights demonstrator. In addition to her commitments, Twine performed crafts such as doll making, and knitting. The connection between fabric and motherhood is evident in how a warm blanket is the first thing babies are swaddled with after leaving the warmth of a mother’s womb. Women often knitted household items such as pot holders, baby blankets and booties.

Lottie Pierson Johnson photo by Anne C. Heyman


Lottie Pierson Johnson, the first Black nurse at Flagler Hospital would get her start as a pre-teen working with Dr. Daniel W. Roberts. Roberts was the first African American doctor to operate at Flagler Hospital, and even had his own hospital at 80 Bridge St. He helped her to pursue nursing school, but a sick mother forced her to leave her studies and return to St. Augustine. She later became the first African American nurse to work at the Florida East Coast Railroad Hospital.

Artist Talks

More Musings

To muse is to think about something carefully, to contemplate, to meditate.  Now that you have taken in this exhibition we invite you to muse for a moment.  In the space of Yellow House, visitors added their thoughts to an interactive wall, extended the story set up by our artists.

How has this collection of art and writings changed or reinforced your perceptions or lived experiences of motherhood?  We hope that you will share your musing by sending it to us through the link below. This gracious space will add to the conversation about who we are, what we have learned, and how we envision a more just world for all mothers.

    Some of the musings shared with us …

    Mothering is an infinite journey.  When I mother myself I increase my capacity to mother and nurture others. I am so in love with this exhibit.  Thank you for inviting me along.

    My mother is and always has been my hero.  Working and handling us kids was never easy.  I think I never became a mom in fear of not living up.  I admire all moms for being brave in the unknown.

    Motherhood is hard.  So hard it is scary. But feeling the love that my mother gives me everyday makes me want to experience it more.  I don’t know if there is a right way to go about it, or if I am cut out for it, but I do know I will love any child like my mother loves me.

    This visual art, words spoken and statistics written bring tears as I consider the ever-present pain experienced by African Americans. From these tears come a renewed commitment to use my white privilege to create equity. I know it won’t happen in my lifetime and my commitment does not falter but is strengthened.

    This is so moving and powerful. It has touched my soul.

    We need to bring community back into mothering and pregnancy and birth.

    I am not a mom, but your children see me when they don’t see you.  In the classroom I’m the mom, the aunt, the grandma, the neighbor, the honey dripper lady, the lady peeking in the window trying to see what they’re doing. Sometimes I am the teacher, too…. #HiFive. We got this.

    The morning rain nurtures the grass to grow green. Your musings nurture the soul to grow in beautiful, bountiful and bold ways! Congratulations!

    As one who hung on every word of Shawana’s musings as she shared them in real-time, I find that experiencing them now, layered with the powerful visual works by such gifted artists, in a time of necessary community distancing, is deeply intensely, emotional. Thank you for making this available online. this exhibition underscores so much about what is happening now as we see the pandemic expose the reality behind what we have called civil society-revealing, in a global and deeply personal way, the tragic disparities and injustices in our social structures. Listening to Shawana give voice to her personal yet universal truths gives me hope that we can emerge with greater reverence for life- all lives -and work toward stronger connections, the righting of wrongs, and the restructuring true community.

    I am a Mother to many although I have never given birth. I have fed, clothed, served as Legal guardian, cried, and chastised. Moreover, I know the LOVE and sacrifice of Motherhood from my own Mother and am in awe of the mirth and magic. Hence, my charge to change the musings to laws because the statistics are as painful as Iabor.

    Being a mother is my most proud title, but not my only title.

    Thank you for engaging in the collective work of Yellow House as we take this exhibition online during a time of physical distancing, anxiety, and dramatic change.  Our work lives at the intersection of art and community, centering the experiences and stories that help spur us into action to create a more just world. We believe this exhibition and the artists whose works are lifted up for all of us to see are relevant at this time.  It is our hope that you find empowerment in the truths shared here, hope in the resiliency expressed, and inspiration to be part of the change that we need.

    Your contributions support our mission of connecting art and community to build understanding, inspire empathy, and spark civic engagement.

    exhibit curated by HOPE McMATH | exhibit webpage designed by CARYL BUTTERLEY